mind, music, and time

free writing through memories

What’s happening now, is what is happening now,

the music playing and me in my rocking seat swaying and the mind is racing, its racing its going in every which way, in every time in every place, the future is pulling,

What’s happening now, is what is happening now,

We listened to this song in Mitzpe Ramon, we listened as we sat together in the living room, we were nine people or maybe ten, it was Pesach and we were on a journey together. we listened to the song again as we walked toward the trees, a micro forest in the middle of the desert, it was sunny and the acid was beginning to hit, we were starting to dissolve,

Is happening now…

the song is ending, the music changes and the memory moves, the mind is here and s c a t t e r i n g, we are always in between dissolution,

I just wanted you to watch me dissolve, slowly

it’s a different song, indie, ‘Dissolve’ by Absofacto. I saw it on spotify through one of Ben’s playlists, this was a few years ago.

I just wanted you to watch me dissolve, slowly, in a pool full of love, your love

It was when I had just return to the MSc. program. I was still sick then. I was tired and lonely, too. and there was joy and beauty because there is always joy and beauty, and there was pain there was fear and pain and sadness, and I listened to music and sang along softly.

I don’t even know how the chemistry works when you’re poolside, kicking in the dirt, kicking in the sand, and stirring up trouble.